I thought I saw you out of the corner of my eye, but it was just your ghost playing tricks on my mind.
Your ghost lives in my peripheral vision. It whispers in my ear, I’m still here.
It speaks to me through muffled voices in crowded places, in and around the everyday shuffling.
It makes contact through the eyes of countless strangers, who I don’t really think know what it is to be haunted or surely, they would turn away and spare me your gaze.
Won’t you meet me in the after where I remain and you are gone? Where there are no angels, devils or ghosts, but an empty house— won’t you come?
Won’t you meet me in the void where my heart betrays me and hope survives? Where the earth is frozen and the sky is white— won’t you come?
Won’t you whirl your wind around me or place a whisper on my pillow? Won’t you leave a song outside my door to break the silence in this house?
Won’t you meet me in the winter when it’s midnight and turned cold? When I’ve outgrown the void and outlived the hope, when my soul believes you’re gone?
Won’t you meet me by the old maple, where you left me when we were young? We’ll tell stories and wake the spirits: I want to know what you’ve been up to— won’t you come?
They tell you to follow the sun as if night isn’t upon you as if the shadows aren’t real
but night is still upon you
The thing in your mouth, copper hush rage whispers silence screams until you sing your song of flames:
Let them come Oh, let them rage Let them find me in the shadows Let them say my name And quake
They tell you to let go as if you’ve unpacked your pain as if you’ve poured it into the earth
but hell still sits in a suitcase
The thing in your belly, it knows the magic lies in the coming apart in the middle of the wreck in your every season and every room it waits
Hurt is hard to feel but still the wound must speak and speak it does before you heal
They tell you to sit on the moon keep fishing dark skies for stars as if hope isn’t hanging by a thread of nostalgia as if you didn’t notice the rage behind the flowers before they were plucked from your garden
but his hands are still entangled in your hair
The thing in your center, it calls little by little in waves it comes
Pull up a chair, sorrow says out of body, slip you will rebuild yourself but first, rest